NaNo or Nah?

For many years I have planned to take part in the 30-Day writing extravaganza known as NaNoWriMo, and yet the month of November will pass with little fanfare, however, with mere days left of October I’m getting the creative itch and want to try again.

I currently have more commitments and responsibilities in my life than I have in a long time, if ever to be honest, which really should dissuade me but instead I think that this may be an opportunity to learn a few skills that will help not just in terms of writing 50,000 but also in life. In order for this to work I need to be disciplined, I need to have a schedule, I need to not edit or critique my work and focus on getting things done. These are all things that, despite my best intentions, I struggle with and yet (especially when it comes to routine) I crave.

So the question is, do I try again?

When I was little, if asked what I wanted to be when I grew up I would say ‘a writer and an illustrator’ and yet throughout the years I have pushed my art aside and ignored the stories that often want to spill out.

A few posts ago I wrote about temporary satisfaction and how I had to face up to the hurt and regret of the times I had let opportunities pass me by because of fear or discomfort.

In the next post I shared my List-in-Progress which I hoped would spur me into action and allow me to take chances and live joyously. Number 7 on that list was, start writing a book, in brackets I asked myself NaNoWriMo?

Then at the end of September I was hurled into grief by the unexpected death of my beloved cat, Panda. I wrote that I wanted to find meaning in experience that I wanted to use my voice and my life not as walls to keep life (and others) away but to embrace it. So in answer to NaNo or Nah? I say yes.

And with that yes came a strange calm that allowed me, for the first time in so very long to write creatively.

What I have is unedited and raw, it is short – just over 600 words, but I did it.

I didn’t plan, I didn’t edit, I just took a silly joke that I told my mum and wrote.

And let me tell you, it felt really good.

With just a week left of October I say yes to NaNoWriMo, what about you?

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