First let me start by saying Happy New Year to those who celebrate. I know that for some today is merely another Tuesday, but for others it is a day of change; a time for reflection.
Many of us will make big promises today, maybe we want to get healthy or start a new job; maybe we want to begin a new project or go back to school. I know I typically have a list of things I want to achieve in the New Year, and there’s nothing wrong with that but as I took time to look over my life the last year or so I realise that something that I am guilty of is making things too big.
I want to be editing the manuscript before I have written down the initial idea, to be an accomplished violinist after a few lessons. I see the end, one that comes with praise and accolades and ignore the journey. Then at the first hurdle I give up. I make a mistake and call it a failure. Drop those dreams, resolutions and hopes and move on to something else.
I fear the failure because I feel ashamed of it and I feel ashamed because I am so focused on what others will think.
Seeing it written, I feel arrogant and foolish, no one is watching me like that, and yet I cannot deny the truth. I have been so desperately seeking approval and acceptance that I have disregarded experiences and opportunities.
But worse of all, I have disregarded God.
My faith is such an intrinsic part of me, and yet I have spent decades ignoring God and what He says about me so that I can maybe, by chance, gain the brief satisfaction of someone, anyone, saying ‘good girl‘.
I have belittled myself and hidden because I did not understand the importance of starting small. I didn’t understand that sometimes I would push so far forward that I ended up sabotaging myself.
The bible says “Do not despise these small beginnings, for the Lord rejoices to see the work begin…”
(Zechariah 4:10, NLT)
It is the starting – and continuing – that pleases God. Small steps forward, getting back up after setbacks, taking time to rest, and all the way relying on Him.
We do not need to focus on how long it takes us, and we especially should not compare our steps to others. We do not need the world’s praise, it is temporary and fickle. Instead, be thankful and celebrate the little steps that lead to our God given dreams, knowing that God is a finisher. If we start, He will finish.
Is there a goal, dream or resolution that you set for yourself today? Speak the name of God over your circumstances and be willing to start small.
God bless you friends!
I look forward to spending much more time with you in 2019.